I am tired tonight, my friends. Bone-weary, don’t want to talk, don’t want to laugh, don’t want to even breathe deeply tired. I was in Roses trying to get my daughter some t-shirts and had to leave. Was too tired to finish shopping. Ran through the drive-thru to get a sandwich and came on in.
I was glad to be home! I sat on the couch and laughed some with my family. They thought I was enjoying their company. Although I was, the truth is, I was so tired, I didn’t have the strength to walk up even one of the thirteen steps to my bedroom. So I sat until I could do it.
The days like this are the hardest for me. The fatigue of fibromyalgia can zap my energy faster that you can say “jack rabbit”. I push until I can’t go anymore and tonight is one of those nights. I can’t even believe the words are coming for me to write!
What spurred me on was what I heard whispering in my ears as I made it up those steps as surely as I am writing this to you. As I sent a text message to my friend Terry about being tired, I heard COME UNTO ME ALL YE THAT LABOR, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST! Yes, Lord, I hear YOU!!!! You got me!!
When it hurts to breathe, and hurts to talk and it even hurts to type – You got me covered! As my kids fight over soap and I know I have homework, You are there! The bills, the uncertainty of tomorrow, my silent moans of frustration for being misunderstood and my heavy heart are all laid at Your Feet. I can’t do anything else today about any of it, so tonight I choose to turn it over to YOU!
I will not go to bed and take worry into my sleep. You told me that You will give me rest and I expect a sweet sleep! Just thinking of that made me smile and then it hit me! By giving it to Him, in that one moment, in less than a second, the heaviness was gone. Tears of joy are running down my face as I realize, when nothing and nobody else could help, His love lifted me. Literally lifted my spirit into a new dimension of rest in Him.
Whatever you face tonight, today, whenever you read this – truly give it to Him! Not, well Lord, here it is, then you take it back and worry. But tell Him all about it and trust that HE HAS YOU TOO!!!
Real talk – my body still hurts and, physically, I am still very tired, but as my soul rests in Him, I believe healing is on the way!
I pray you will rest in Him fully! It’s joy unspeakable!
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest!
Until next time, I remain
Your Advocate for Victorious Living