Philippians 4:7 New Life Version (NLV)
The peace of God is much greater than the human mind can understand. This peace will keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
I am a person that likes to know where I’m headed in life. While I do love surprises with the playfulness of a child, when it comes to planning out my activities, bills, children’s schedules, etc., I need to know what is going to happen. I get off centered when a glitch in the plan comes up and I suddenly don’t know what is going to happen. I need to know what is really going on. I have analyzed myself and came to the conclusion that it must stem from experiences in my childhood. While I had two parents in the home, I have to admit that there were some rocky times due to alcoholism with my father and somehow, I emerged with an overwhelming need to have to know exactly what is happening or I get upset and off-balance.
You can imagine that life’s changes often rock my boat. There is no way I can be sheltered and pampered into believing that all will be well and on an even keel at all times. It just doesn’t happen that way. I have found that even with the best laid plan you can ever make, there will be times when life will send something your way that will shake you to the core.
I have had many experiences in my life that have shaken me but I am still here, by the grace of God! I have been shaken upside down and right-side up but I plunged forward with God on my side. I had to remember that and hold on to that since I received some news today that is unsettling. Seems like the storms of life are raging on every side of me. This cannot be happening!
I’m not sure what to do. How can I wrap my mind around this? What do I do when I don’t know what to do? How do I smile when all I want to do is scream? If I took off running down the hall, folks would think I am crazy and call for the police to take me to the psych ward. There are times when I wanted to take myself there and check in for a few days. Today is one of those days that if I did take off in a run, you would understand, trust me!
Yet, in the midst of it all, eerily, quietly, it’s really almost surreal – I am peaceful. I am not crying or having an anxiety attack or putting myself through imaginary scenarios of what could happen based on the newest issue in my life.
I am peaceful and it’s making me smile. I know that my God has taken care of me and will continue to do so. I am not wavering in my faith that He can fix any problem. He is my Lawyer, my Doctor, my Deliverer, my Jehovah-Jireh!
Yes, yes, Lord! This peace is greater than my mind can understand. I don’t know how I can be this peaceful with what I am facing. How can I be so calm when the worrier in me usually is spastic by now? It really is much, much greater than I can comprehend.
But whether I understand or not, the peace is here. A gift from God as a reward for my faith. I believe He will provide. I believe He will continue to take care of me and my family. I believe that He will never leave me or forsake me, that He is with me until the end of the world!
I am no longer walking in doubt or worry! I do not have time to go back to a life where I depend on myself to make things happen. If I can sing All to Jesus I Surrender, then surrender it shall be!
This trial, this test, not even the next ones, will get me to doubt that GOD IS ABLE!! I see the fruits of the Spirit in action in me and it’s amazing! I’m in a new level in Him and its showing up strong today.
Galatians 5:22 (King James Version)
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith
I am concerned about what is going on but I am not worried. I know that the Lord will make a way somehow! It is well with my soul! I thank God today for this peace. Though it may greater than what I can understand, I am grateful for its presence today.
God, help me to maintain this peace in the midst of this present storm and any to follow. I am releasing my faith and trusting that You hold me in the palms of Your hands! I love You and cast all my cares on You, knowing You see the end. I praise You for Your love, grace, and mercy. In Jesus’s Name. Amen
Until Next Time,
I Remain Your Advocate for Victorious Living