I’ve been a little silent and it has not been on purpose. A lot has been happening in my life since I last wrote. I have to admit that I’ve had to pull up my own writings and encourage myself!! But that’s ok – if it worked for David, I had to find out that it would work for me too. (1 Samuel 30:6……but David encouraged himself in the Lord his God.)
Lately, the one word that comes to mind most often is meantime.
Meantime – the dictionary says its the intervening time or period, as between events or another word for meanwhile (www.dictionary.com)
The intervening time or period between events….mmmmm…..that period of time between what just happened and what I want to happen next!! What I NEED to happen next!!
In the meantime……..what do we do when faced with situations that you want to change like….yesterday??? What do I do to fill the emptiness and the pain of the meantime? How can I survive this meantime experience when all I want to do is be on the other side of through???
I don’t know if any one of you are like me right now. Every day seems to be a challenge. If it ain’t one thing, it’s sure nuff another! And speaking for myself, I am so very tired of being in the meantime!
This place of in between is not nice or kind to me. I find myself fighting the notion that I must try and always look on the bright side. Always hoping against hope against hope that I will feel better sooner rather than later.
Trust me…I am not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me. I am just being real with myself and you. Meantime living does not feel good! Somebody tell me now, this minute, how to feel better!!!! I demand it! Don’t want to keep hoping I will feel better soon and telling myself it will be all right. I want my change to come now. Tired of waiting and looking for the pie in the sky.
Yet, in the midst of my meantime, in the midst of the struggle, the answer is here. The same answer I will always have for every question – yesterday, today, and forever more – JESUS!
Once again, I have to remind myself that my hope is built on nothing less than His blood and righteousness. I dare not trust myself, but wholly lean on His Name!
That is it, no more, no less. I must let go of my struggle to be through this and simply trust Him and His word that tells me that He will fight the battles for me. As I rest in Him, the peace comes.
This kind of peace that passes my limited comprehension. Cause I don’t know how I am still standing upright. I cannot scientifically explain how I am able to get up each day, face the challenges and make it back home safely.
All I do know is that as I give it to Him daily, He eases it for me and gives me peace. A firm assurance in my spirit that everything indeed will be all right! A calm like no other that says He has me in the palm of His loving Hands! I love You Jesus! I worship and adore You today! There surely is no one else like YOU!!!!
I don’t understand why I am in the middle of this meantime. I can’t explain why you may be either. I just understand that when we don’t have an answer today we must trust God fully!! Trust real hard, with everything within!
On the rough days, He will give you strength to endure and courage for the journey. Just let Him do His work. Our humanity makes us want to fix everything immediately. But you have to understand that there are some things that will not work out that way.
One of my favorites sayings is TO GET THROUGH, YOU GOT TO GO THROUGH! It tells us that in order to have a “get through” testimony, we HAVE to “go through” the test. Will it be easy? Sometimes no. Will it feel good? Probably not. In the meantime, understand that your testimony will help somebody else. I know that is hard to swallow when you are going through but its so very true.
I can’t even tell you how long your meantime will be. Like, you, I want my meantime over ASAP!. But our God knows and He’s got you!! Even if it doesn’t feel like it – let your faith lead you!! Trust Him, simply trust Him!! Pray and praise your way through. Read your Bible and pray those scriptures over your situation.
Not sure when it will be over but, in my meantime, I know that my Savior is carrying me every step of the way. As I am typing this, I realized that my testimony is not going to be about what happens when my meantime is over, when my next significant event happens.
My testimony will be about how I truly made it over!!!! In fact, I have to go now…..gotta get my praise on for the journey and for knowing that somehow, someway I WILL GET THROUGH!!!!
I’ll put in a praise that you will be through your meantime in such a way that God will get the glory!!
In the Meantime, I’m Gonna Continue to Live Victoriously!!!