Philippians 3:14 – King James Version
I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
Whew! It’s been a minute since I have written huh? So much has happened that I cannot share it all today. Been dealing with so many issues that it overwhelmed me and although I had the thoughts, I just could not seem to find the time to sit at the computer and simply write down what God would have me to say.
In October, I celebrated my one year anniversary of writing this blog. Seems hard to believe that a year has come and gone! I must take time to thank you all for hanging in there with me, praying for me, and sharing your testimonies with me of the blessing you received when God had His way in me. I am forever humbled and grateful that I have this opportunity to be used in His service to help myself and His people. The past year has been a journey of self-discovery and I am still on that path of fulfilling His purpose in me.
I have always tried to be transparent as I write and I think I was embarrassed that as I wrote to try to encourage others, my own world was crumbling. Along with dealing with the pain of my fibromyalgia, working full time, mothering full time, and all the rest, my marriage hit a brick wall and we separated earlier this year. I allowed the enemy to whisper to me that I could not write what God was telling me because I was being hypocritical. How could I be of use to anyone else since I could not keep my own home life together? So, I did not write, I did not obey what I know God called me to do.
I have begun to fully realize, after struggling with the pull to write, that God wants me to use my pain, my trials, and then my victories with His people so that we all can be healed. This is the reason I began to write in the first place! I had the desire to let others know they are not alone in their struggles, that Jesus is only a prayer away. What could have changed just because I am struggling in my marriage?
In fact, nothing about that calling has changed! If I cry, whether it be a sad or happy cry – I will write! When I am in so much pain that I can’t move or if I am moved to just praise His Name – I will write! I have come to understand that it really is not about me! How can I dare to shy away from telling how I made it over because I am embarrassed? My story of what God can do will bless others and inspire us all to keep on moving in Him.
I apologize to you for not sharing the cheers and tears of the past few months. God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams and I am in a good place. My girls are doing well in school and they are seeing their mom continue to lift up the Name of Jesus through it all!
I am still here by the grace of God and will do what He says do! Going into a new season in my life and I owe everything I am to Him! Look forward to new posts and please share them with anyone you know will be blessed.
I admonish you to NOT do what I did. Walk into the calling He has on YOUR life despite what the enemy says. We are over comers and have already won the battle that was not ours to begin with!
Until Next Time,
Living Victoriously Means I Am Doing What I Am Called To Do!
I’m Still Here – Dr. Dorinda Clark-Cole