Deuteronomy 1:5,6 (NIV) 5 East of the Jordan in the territory of Moab, Moses began to expound this law, saying: 6 The Lord our God said to us at Horeb, “You have stayed long enough at this mountain.
Truly enough is enough! Truly I have stayed too long at my mountain and God says it is time to move on! Recently, I have come up against some health challenges that have me seriously looking at what I am doing to stay healthy and stay around as long as I can! For real!
A few weeks ago, I saw a long time friend who is facing her own health issues. Then, I lost another friend to cancer. Both were younger than me and I am in shock. And honestly, I am scared. Scared that I may face this same path if I don’t change my ways, so enough is enough!
As I lay in my bed last weekend on orders mandated by my doctor, I had a chance to contemplate what has gotten me to this point in my life, and quite frankly, I am fighting mad! Mad at myself more than anyone else. It would be easy to blame everyone around me who has hurt me for this state I am in but I must live in the truth now. The truth is that I made the choice to eat more and exercise less than I should. I made some choices that were not good for my physical, social, and spiritual selves. It was me, plain and simple. And I am mad at me. Mad enough and sad enough to finally make the necessary changes that will enable me to enjoy the rest of the life God has blessed me with.
I want to see my children grow and walk into their calling. I want to be able to walk up a flight of stairs and not feel like I need some oxygen. I want to go for a walk with my girls without feeling pain at each step. So enough is enough!
I have had enough of feeling bad about myself. As I type this, the tears are rolling down my face. I have had enough of making excuses for not smelling the roses while I have the chance. I have had enough of watching my life slip away slowly through my inability to just make positive changes in my behavior. And I know that now is the time! There is no more time for procrastination.
I have asked God to give me the strength to do what I have to do to be a healthier me. When I wrote this a few weeks agon, I was on day five of my health challenge and it is going well. Today was rough because I actually was craving something sweet. I had 3 cookies and that was it. It is time to exercise self control and rely on God’s strength to see me through. I need Him more than ever and He is ever faithful to help me! I needed more help today cause I had a TWIX!!! Jesus!!!
This is a time for serious contemplation. Definite changes must come as I walk into the rest of my life. It is scary to think about what could happen to me if I do not stay on this healthy path. I am actually on bedrest, and will be going through some testing. At this critical moment in my life, enough is enough!
I ask you to look at your life and change what you know should be changed. It is way past time for all of us to enjoy life now! Yes, we have the assurance of eternal life with our salvation but we have also been told that He came so we can have life more abundantly. In that abundance, I want to see places I have never seen before! I want to visit with old friends and laugh at every silly joke we made back then. I want to be present at each and every performance that my children participate in and yell, “that’s my baby” to the top of my lungs!
I want to keep on writing this blog so that we can share together on this marvelous journey. I hope you can join me in looking at those areas in our lives that need fixing and fix it as quickly as possible. It will be so worth it! Enough is truly enough!
Committed More Than Ever to Living Victoriusly!