2017 Reflections

Isaiah 43:18-19New King James Version (NKJV)

18 “Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
19 Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert.

Hello Lovely People,

It is the very last day of 2017 and I wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and am so very grateful for you in my life! You have hung in there with me and let me know that this writing thing is not in vain! I am forever humbled and appreciate you!! Please know that.

I have struggled this year with completing activities and tasks that I started. I had very good intentions and then life would hit me. Just smacked me in the face and I stalled once again. My family was hit with the news that my youngest daughter was having seizures. I was so shocked and hurt! This happened in February and so began a downward spiral for her. She had to be hospitalized and tested various times. She was prescribed medicine that has changed her comprehension a bit. This has caused her to struggle with her homework and become almost a different person.

As all this was happening, my job did a 180 degree turn and I am in a new department under a new manager. I struggled to keep it together in school and failed a course so I stopped for a bit. I did go back and finished one more class but it was so tough I took an Incomplete and recently finished the work. I did get a 100 on that final paper and an A in the class – trust me, it was so very hard to do.

I learned this year that there is indeed resilience inside of me that I did not know I had. Yeah, I talk a good game but when my baby got sick, I felt so helpless and alone and did not even seek the prayers of my normal prayer warriors. I was lost for a bit, I must admit! Watching my child struggle turned me into a blubbering mess.

However, I kept pressing forward and praying and crying. One day, it was enough! I talked to myself and told myself to get over the pity party and fight back. Only way I knew how was with my praise, praying and reading God’s Word. A friend of mine from work, gave me a scripture-based packet on healing and for ten days we got up early in the morning to pray together over those scriptures and readings. We called out people by name and let me tell you, my faith was restored and I felt some joy and peace settle in my soul!

My baby is not as good as I would like her to be but I give God praise that she has not had a full blown seizure EVER and the meds she is on is working for her. We are helping her as much as we can through counseling and assistance with her homework to get back on track. I rejoice when I think about how much worse it could be. We would attend her visits at the children’s hospital and encounter children with all manner of illnesses. It has been very sobering indeed to see these precious children stricken at such young ages.

I learned all over again that I have to encourage myself, never give up, and truly praise God in the good and especially during the bad. That there is joy no matter what is going on. I learned to trust God again and in doing so, I found peace. That peace that passes my feeble understanding of how it exists – it just is. He has done a new thing in me for sure!

I am better prepared to face the challenges of 2018 because the God of 2017 is right there waiting on me. He indeed makes all things new and I am a witness of His restoration and endless love! I wish for you to know without a doubt that our God is able to do more for you than you can even imagine! I wish you can know this peace I have! I wish you experience this all year long and into your forever! Trust God through your tests and trials and turn the pity into praise! You will never be the same!

Got a book coming out in 2018 of the best of my blogs! Thank you again for sharing the journey with me! There is much to look forward to in the coming year and much to do! To God be the glory for what He has done, is doing, and is about to do!!

Smiling Victoriously Into The New Year!!!!!

Called To Be Aware

Hebrews 13:2 – KJV  – Be not forgetful to entertain strangers: for thereby some have entertained angels unawares.
I checked in last week to an appointment to meet with my new nutritionist. The location and office was new to me as well and I did not know what to expect. I am a person who is mindful of first impressions so I wondered what my experience would be. I was not impressed at all. The office was not as bright and decorative as others I have visited and seemed a little dark in some aspects. The other patients were interesting too. I saw people with oxygen tanks, in wheelchairs, and some were talking loud to each other and on their cell phones.
It was a bit overwhelming for me with all the noise but what troubled me the most was the less than welcoming attitude of the people checking in the patients. Everyone who waited had to stand behind a sign. The receptionists would yell “NEXT PATIENT IN LINE PLEASE” and one would go up further. When it was my turn, I walked up to the desk, and said brightly, “Good Morning, how are you today?”  The lady looked at me and said good morning but I could tell it was not from her heart. She looked hot and frazzled. I asked her how her day had been thus far and when she looked at me again, I could tell she finally saw me, Victoria, and not just the next patient in line. I asked her again about her day and if she had a fan she could use. She brightened a little bit to know someone cared about her in the midst of the chaos around us.
I saw immediately that she had pretty much adapted to her environment and had begun to treat people as if they were a number. I get it totally! She is constantly surrounded by people who are perceived as poor, sick, mentally challenged, and at times, simply annoying. I truly understand her pain! I could very well understand why she seemed to have checked out of making any real connections with people. In those moments, I was soberly reminded me of a place I have to work hard not to be in.
I have to remind myself and challenge us all to never forget the “people” factor in our walk with the Lord. I constantly talk to people on my job who have complaints and there are days that my patience is very short. I have to make myself remember that each person deserves for me to show them the Light of God in me as I work to resolve their issues. I cannot treat them as if they are just a number. I cannot ever minimize the impact my treatment of them will have on their lives. I want those I come in contact with to remember that their experience with me is positive and helpful, regardless of the issues they face.
We are called to be aware that our service needs to be unto the Lord, not man. After all, we may be serving angels who have come to see if there is really any Light in us at all!!
Serving Victoriously!